Wants vs. Needs

I know I’m mad late but I just recently really got on the Weeknds album. I’ve had it sitting in my Dropbox for a few months but haven’t really listened to it lol. I absolutely love it and listen to it everyday. It’s so chill and it’s great to vibe to. My friends think its depressing but I still rock with it.

Anyways, I'll get to that in a second but for now, heyyyy guys!! I’ve been thinking about what I wanted to talk about in my next post and I have been meaning to write but I have had so much on my plate lately that my eyes seemed to be bigger than my stomach. Haven’t had a chance to just sit down and write. I’m on my lunch break and not too hungry so I decided to take a quick 30 minutes to listen to some music and vent.

“And ima love you girl the way you need…he’s what you what, I’m what you need” - lyrics to one of my favorite songs off the Weeknds album. Love this song, I know exactly what I want but it’s not necessarily what I need. It’s crazy how you want all the wrong things in life and you ignore what you need right in front of you. I struggle with that, and the struggle is real lol. Wants vs. needs is always a difficult conflict. I try to get out of reverse but every time I try to run away I get sucked back in. I keep looking in that rearview mirror of mine smh. I tell myself and others everyday I know what I need to do. A lot of people don’t understand me but I really can’t explain myself right now, I just do and you just watch. People may not agree with the things I do but don’t understand that they have a direct impact on my actions. For every action there’s an equal and opposite reaction, something that should have been learned forever ago. I hope that a lot of the things I say don’t fall on deaf ears. Trust me I understand where you are coming from, but for once can someone understand my point of view!? You can never really understand a particular situation until you are in it. I always told myself, "I could never be that girl." well the reality is I am that girl and now I have to live with my choices. Do I tough it out or do I run for cover? My life is a project and I have a lot to cover. Hoping to ace this thing called life lol just making sure I get it right and put in my best effort before submitting the final product. Thanks to all the positive people in my life, I love you.

-stay cool
xoxo andy