First of all I would like to wish all of my lovely Soror’s a Happy Founder’s Day!!! 105 years of greatness and service to all mankind. I love my sisters with all my heart. From the outside looking in you will never understand and from the inside looking out, it can never be explained. They have helped me in so many ways.
The past week I’ve been trying to work on myself, taking steps to become healthy again. Baby steps is the key objective. I still have quite a journey ahead and I’m sharing it every bit of the way. Some of you may not see it yet but I’m a work in progress, I promise. I admit, I haven’t given up some of the guilty pleasures *smirk face* but that’s not going to happen over night, hell some may not be given up at all. I don’t know, I know what’s good for me and what’s not but you know that saying, “some people are in your life for a reason and some for a season”? Well maybe I’m not ready to change seasons yet. It’s like that phase between summer and fall where you know you have to break out the winter clothes but you’re in denial that summer is gone and it’s time for the cold. All the memories and good times that you just refuse to let go of stick in youe mind. When things are good, they’re amazing and just like I do with the summer I look back and think of the memories and choose not to let go. I’ll know when the time is right but for now I’m going with the flow, my flow. I love that feeling you get when certain songs, places, and objects just make you smile. That one thought of a hilarious moment that was shared or when an inside joke just between the two of you will make your whole day.
Anyways, it’s crazy how some of the things that make you happy can also bring you down. I’m learning though, to exclude negative and obsessive behavior from my life. The only thing that matters is my happiness and if someone or something can directly or indirectly affect that then they should not be a factor in my life. I had to stop worrying about things I can’t control and factors outside of my own life. If I ignore the people that purposely try to anger or hurt me I won’t have to stress. These people are irrelevant. I’m going to continue to brighten my path and keep moving in a forward direction. I have a few quotes from Marilyn Monroe that I would like to end with. Some of you may have heard them but these are some of my favorites.
“When it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, then I’m already better than them.”
“I’m selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.”
“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”
“This life is what you make it. No matter what, you’re going to mess up sometimes, it’s a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you’re going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they’ll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they’re your true best friends. Don’t let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they’ll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can’t give up becuase if you give up, you’ll never find your soul mate. You’ll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn’t mean you’re gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don’t, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life’s a beautiful thing and there’s so much to smile about.”
-Andy
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